I have always been really good at school. Those who know me know who obsessive I can get about grades and how well I am doing.
But lately I’ve struggled. I got a test back yesterday with the score of an 88 and I thought I was going to get an A. When you are used to A’s, B’s are extremely low. I know. I’m sort of odd about this because who in their right mind would be upset about an 88? Overachievers, who perhaps are never in their right minds. And that’s what I am, at least with grades.
Today I took a Spanish test and it was the hardest Spanish test I have ever taken. I guess I am getting better, so I think I understood everything but one fill-in-the-blank, which didn’t make any sense, but I spent a lot of time and scribbled about half of what I wrote out and rewrote it before I was done. It was hard.
I like school and I like test taking, but when it gets too hard and my grades start going downhill (into that terrible, awful range of the B’s), I feel bad.
I really need to change my perspective on things.