Sorry to disappoint those early guesses, but baby isn’t coming today.
Today was my penultimate (what a wonderful word) day at work. I’m so torn right now: I want to be a mom, but leaving this job is harder than I ever thought. I loved being a legal secretary.
I didn’t like my previous job, so I decided to look for another, I thought being a legal secretary sounded nice. Even though I had little idea what a legal secretary did. So I went around all the firms in Logan and asked if they were hiring. And the best firm in town hired me. I got lucky.
I’ve had this job longer than any other job. It just fit me. It wasn’t perfect (no job is), but I enjoyed it. I liked drafting documents. I liked doing occasional research. I liked editing things and printing things out. I liked sorting through files and trying to figure what was going on. I even liked helping people with their computer and/or formatting problems.
But I go forward now into new adventures. I am a completely different person than I was before. So many of my life goals have changed. When I graduated from high school, I had dreams. Big dreams.
Now those dreams are smaller, but so much better.
In college, I wrote this on a post-it note: “Being a mom is your career.” It reminded me what I really and truly wanted in life. And there have been times when a professional career sounded so enticing.
But I’m not going to have a career. I’m going to have a baby.