I watched a video yesterday where a lady said that she was striving to be this ideal person and she realized she had totally made that person up. She hadn’t have to be that way.
That resonated with me, and my brain chewed on it for a while.
I realized that I don’t have to want something I can’t have. Sometimes it’s impossible for my house to be clean and my kids to be happy. But wanting both just makes me miserable.
I’ve created this ideal life–but it’s all in my head. And I can let go of that. I can change that image. I should want the good things that I already have. My ideal shouldn’t be some impossibility, but what God wants for me.
For example, I want happy kids, but I don’t necessarily want to nurse BB every two hours (or more) and hold him as much as he wants. But he’s only going to be happy if I do make that sacrifice to nurse him often and hold him and let other things slide. So instead of wanting something impossible (happy kids who I only have to attend to on my schedule), I should just want to be the best mom I can be and be happy in making sacrifices for my kids. I can realize the happiness that is already there in holding him and loving him.
I can’t have it all, but I already have a life that is full of so many good moments. I just need to realize how much I have. And to realize that, I sometimes have to take a step back, get rid of my own wants and desires, and look at my life more objectively. When I do that, I can see my blessings and the good things more clearly.