Most of the time, I am happy.
But sometimes . . . I cry for no good reason. I get angry and do things I regret. Life feels really hard even when it shouldn’t be. I am lonely. I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere. I don’t know what to do with my life and myself and I feel like I have no direction. I want to watch television for hours so I don’t have to think.
We all have bad times.
But there are still many good moments in life. We love when daddy comes home from work. My kids sometimes go in his work truck and they drive around our circular driveway together.
I do activities with my kids, like painting and cutting things out and singing. We have good family times, like setting up the tent.
I finished Anne of Windy Poplars, which means I have now read the entire Anne series by L. M. Montgomery. They are currently my favorite books. I want to live somewhere beautiful like Anne does. There is beauty in the desert where I live, but it is hard to find sometimes.
But in the end, I love my little family. My family is my purpose in life. And my kids are really cute.
(Those tan pants and the shark shirt are apparently BB’s favorite outfit. The two pictures above were taken on separate days and then today he was wearing the same thing for a while, until he ruined the tan pants with marker.)