But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear (1 Peter 3:15)
My mom recently shared a story with me (I hope I tell this right). When my Grandma Jane was sick early on in life, she was sitting with her Grandma Eleanor and Jane said, “I don’t think there is a God.”
“What did you say?” her Grandma responded.
“I don’t think there is a God.”
Her Grandma was not happy. She said, “You look around at everything there is around you, and then you say there isn’t a God.”
Grandma Jane thought about it, and she decided that there was a God after all, and she hasn’t doubted since.
There are so many reasons why I believe what I do. There are so many reasons to hope.
I feel happy when I follow God’s commandments. I feel more complete. I feel more like myself.
When I pray and when I try to follow what I feel is inspiration from God, I find a greater amount of happiness and joy.
I feel peace when I am at church and when I am in the temple, an overwhelming peace that makes me know that everything will be okay.
I don’t always understand everything, but I believe that everything can be understood at some point, and that God understands everything.
When I read the scriptures, they seem fundamentally true. Not just factual, but true because they teach me how to live. It’s like looking at a compass and a map and finally knowing what direction you are going and where you need to get.
I want hope that I can be better and overcome my mistakes, but I know I can’t do it by myself. I need something more–I need the Atonement of Jesus Christ, and I have felt strengthened through that power, and able to change.
I feel like sometimes the world becomes more and more chaotic, but that there will be and can be order, that everything can be made right, and that good will win out and the chaos and confusion can go away.
There have been so many small miracles in my life, moments when I have seen the hand of God. Things that are not just coincidences, but inspiration. When the right song is picked for a church meeting. When I feel I need to call someone or share something specific with someone else. When someone feels the need to call me. When my family and I were protected and kept safe. When I can look back and see how I was prepared for specific experiences, how the Lord directed my life.
When I am with my family, I want to be with them forever. And I can be.
I have lots of reasons for the hope that is in me. There is a God, and he loves me.